Send to a Friend
How can I have a healthy life again after a trauma?
Something happened to me that I suppose I regret even though I always tell myself I shouldn’t regret anything. I was in a car accident last year where I broke my nose and my arm. First time seeing myself in the mirror after the accident was such a shock. I used to always be called the unique featured, pretty, exotic girl. I’ve been confident. I wouldn’t do much make-up, or dress up everyday. I was confident in my looks enough to focus on other things in life and educate myself every day.
After the accident I became way less attractive. I know that it ‘shouldn’t’ matter, but when you are 24 and have lived with such a familiar face and gotten millions of compliments and TV or movie roles for it. Is not about being vain. It was hard, obviously. It still is hard, because I got to fix my nose and I look even worse. Nose affects so much of the face and the old sweet characteristic facial structure of mine is gone. I am having trouble coping with all this. It is making me upset as much as it would anybody.
Another thing is that I trusted someone so much that I let him operate on my face. And it was a disappointment. So I am suffering being let down this badly. I am really a good girl and I don’t want to lose all hope and trust this early in my life…
I can’t look myself in the mirror without also feeling like I am about to choke. I want to cry myself to sleep most nights. I don’t know how I am going to get out of this situation, but if I don’t I am afraid I will hurt myself. I feel utterly hopeless.
So what can I do now? Is there anything I can do at all to stop looking altered and fake?