How can I overcome this?

Good morning all,

Can someone please give me a solution to this, or mind changing perspective..

Im still struggling with my cousin situation and I’m so sick of it. It always on my mind and I’m tripping. We planned a trip in a few months and I’m already thinking how people are going to disrespect me by saying things like “the other ones not cute but look at her cousin, she’s beyond beautiful” right next to us.

It’s crazy because we get along like twins but that’s the only thing that leave a huge space on my side with her. Im not sure if she ever notice but it makes me crazy, we are family but we’ve been hanging a lot the last 8 years and its alway goes this way with people. In the beginning some people even ask us if we were real cousin thats how beautiful she is and that it was impossible that we were because she was too beautiful.(their exact words).

And I know that beauty is not the most relevant thing to analyze one’s worth but it really is in 2015. A lot of people are famous for just being pretty. Thats has nothing to do with what I’m saying here but it’s just an example. Another example is that no matter what you have going for you, if you not pretty they don’t care. For example with my cousin and I, I went to school, im very intelligent , caring and have a lot of potentiel, my cousin didnt finish high school and still struggle to understand a few basics of life, People that knows her thought she was kinda slow/retarded because she was a little weird ( for ex when you present her to someone she don’t say hi or anything) but I saw that she wasn’t and helped get over that issue and now shes fine, i see she has a lot of potential but just wait on things. Anyways the guy I was talking to (or thought i was talking to) knew me, but still wanted to know her, he’s lusting after her. And to know he was really interested in her hurt like hell. I know she way prettier but to talk to someone and think he’s into you and then know that he isn’t kills. To think that there’s no competition with her because shes magic and to have had feelings for this guy who does not care at all hurts because I know he’s lusting after her. She’s soo beautiful.

I just can’t handle it anymore and it sucks because we get along so well and that’s the only thing and it’s a big thing on my side. It’s crazy because it shouldn’t be my sister told me its not what matters but it matters so much to me why? I can’t continue like this.

I look so miserable. Sorry

Help :(