Why do I seek boys' approval and attention?

Sometimes boys Im involved with call me abnormal and erratic, and say they can’t keep up with me, then they start ignoring me.
This is because I am unpredictable and I also am brutally honest. I like to debate and argue, and talk about whats better to do and whats not, etc. I don’t go with the society and what they think is ‘normal’. I stand behind my own values and I vocalize them. I think many people use sex and relationships as a form of escapism, and I’m not allowing them to escape reality. I do the opposite.

This has cost me many boys because they deem me ‘crazy’ for being this way. The funny part is that they bring out this erratic side with me. Many guys don’t, if they are not too passive or quiet, I become more reserved.

I guess my question is, how should I feel about it to lose someone because of being the way I am? It hurts to be rejected and called crazy and erratic, and being ignored. Should I just be normal and should I try to change what they think of me back to normal and stable?