Do you ever feel like your true personality is bubbling beneath the surface?

I just feel like my life people have always been telling me to stop being so happy. But I like smiling and joking around with people.

I feel like I’m shutdown by society, man. I’m not mean or rude, just pure bliss and care (and athleticism), but when I’m like that, people won’t make eye contact when I smile at them and make eye contact and ask how they are.

I feel like I’m supposed to be a tough guy for no reason at all so people will think I’m cool or something.

There have been times when I’ve been a little too drunk and thought I was a douchebag, but people told me I was great to be around and a good time! Wtf?

Should I just start doing what I feel like and disregard the few strange stares? I feel like a sheep with a friendly lion welling at the surface!