Do you ever feel lost?

i always get these feelings like i don’t belong here, in this world, you know those stories about spirits and supernatural things, i feel like i have a connection with them like i know them sometimes, and my stroke of luck in life comes from “them”, i feel like one of the characters in the novel i’m writing, it’s wired i can’t place it. the strangest thing is when i require dire help and luck, and ask “them” i always, always get it, it a some way or form.