Need motivation and advice?

I have always wanted to be the main character in my life ever since i was little ever since i started watching anime.
But all those main characters have a goal a dream in their life and for me i have no idea what my dream is or was , so i went with the flow and ended up in medicine and in rahbar which might be by mistake.
Now i have zero motivation no feeling of studying its like i am dead.
My dad paying alot and it was his persistence that made me end up in medical.
Anyhow i was also not very sure about what i wanted to do.
So since i have zero passion towards anything i don’t think i am naruto or luffy or midoriyo.
Having no goal, letting ur topper position be taken by someone now that i think i always thought i would be a topper since i was the main character of my life but nahh it was all a joke.
Well, i am stuck now as a loser and as a pathetic person, so does anyone have any advice for me?