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Is it worth it to leave a school because of lonelyness?

Asked by EnzoX24 (1991points) January 27th, 2009

I absolutely hate being at my school. To be honest, its a great school, but I can’t make any friends. People have approached me, but for some reason, I can’t bring myself to make a move. I can’t explain it but I just start panicking really bad. My girlfriend thinks I have an anxiety disorder, and I wouldn’t doubt it. A couple of times things have gotten so far away from me my hand would start shaking and it would take me several minutes to get it under control.

I moved across the state to get a little change in my life, but I’m quickly finding it to have been a wrong choice. If my girlfriend didn’t follow me out here I probably would have had a nervous breakdown months ago.

My best friend might be moving to Florida and if he can work things out he wants me to go with him. This sounds like the perfect escape plan to me, but for some reason I feel like I need to stay where I’m at. I can’t act on impulses at all, and the thought of moving away again scares the shit out of me, even though if I move I could finally have a night where I wasn’t constantly panicking. For some reason my life is like a glass wall; I can see the sunlight on the other side, but no matter how much I try I can’t move forward from where I’m at.

So what should I do? Should I stay where I’m at and pray for something to change, or do I leave what I have here and move across the country, or even back home?

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