Getting to know flutherers (Pt.1) - will you tell me a bit about your relationship to religion?

I had an illustrated book of Bible stories as well as a kid and my favorite was the story of Lazarus…I also wanted to go to church so that I can feed the homeless people who’d sit outside of it in the village where I grew up…I wanted to be baptized just so that I can wear a cross like my aunt and my parents thought that was not a good enough reason to do it…when I came to America, I actually read the bible and it lost me on that whole woman came from man’s rib thing…I looked into other religions throughout my teenage years and found witchcraft/paganism…I became really involved, then was thwarted by my alcoholic father who threw out my altar (forever severing our relationship)...when my brother died, I put my pentagram into his coffin telling him that he can have my powers (he always wanted us to do work together but he was much more into dark magick)...for about 3 or 4 years, I didn’t concern myself with finding god and concerned myself a lot more with studying different religions and since my best friend is Muslim, Islam was one I got into particularly..when I was a sophomore in college, a strange encounter with a guard who worked in the ED of a hospital where I volunteered brought me back onto a pagan path and this time, I developed my powers further…my ex-husband was scared of my involvement with witchcraft as he, throughout our marriage, became progressively more god-fearing…so it was uncomfortable for me to practice in my own house and so I stopped…I was later pregnant and resolved not to do anything until the baby was born…I truly needed help after labor with my pospartum and I wasn’t able to even get up to help myself through magick…after that, life got complicated, I couldn’t spend the time I wanted on pursuing my pagan path through ritual work and spell work, but to this very moment, I know I am one of the universe, I know I have tremendous power within me, I know I can heal, see through people (my perceptiveness I always thought of as one of my powers), glimpse the future and the past…I love exploring all things mystical and love connecting to others on multiple levels…I do not worship gods or goddesses, I do not need to pray..but sometimes I ask the dead for help.