How does one keep his faith in God?

I’m Catholic. I usually dont go to church, ever. For some reason my mom thinks that going to church on Easter will some how make up for the fact that we havn’t gone to church since….last Easter?

As I’m sitting in church day dreaming (i go to a spanish church, i understand it but i cant just keep with what the guy is saying) I start to just think about the whole Catholic thing…it all sounds like bs to me.

I don’t really know a lot about Jesus and stuff but from what i know it’s all about some book and who we are supposed to believe everything that it says…besides that no one can really prove that any of that ever happened (that i know of). As im sitting there I almost miss the feeling of knowing..God is up there and he is taking care of me…but I just can’t understand why.

I want to feel this way again, but no about the same stuff. I almost want to have a small idea about a greater power.