How do I stop being a sissy?

I have for the last ten years or so developed into a fully grown sissy.

I used to love watching horror flicks, but nowadays I am more or less afraid of them. Not like afraid afraid, I just feel that…well, that scare moment you know…when the monster or whatever jumps out of the closet…okay, I am scared of being scared. That wasn’t the case when I was younger.

As soon as it gets cold outside and we get ice on the ground, I kinda feel like a retired old man. I walk slowly, with my feet apart, in order not to slip. If I would feel a little bit crazy I would ride my bike, but I would keep my hand on the break and ever so slowly move forward in order not to fall…

I am a bit afraid of speed and heights…

When a woman I think is attractive I become very shy and end the conversation quickly…

I rather surrender in conflicts and arguments than actually stand up for myself…

So, I don’t like being a sissy. I wish I were more of…well, a man? Is there anything to do about this or do I just have to live with it? Is it a sign of me getting old (I’m only 34…)?