After having lost a loved one (a few years ago), is it normal to shut down somewhat during the Christmas holidays?

I thought that I was doing okay, but, the last couple of days, my mood has been a bit flat (at times I feel sad). I didn’t think that I was sad for a particular reason, I just felt sad. I’m now thinking that it has to do with the loss.

My Mom was all about the holidays and it’s taken a lot of work for my sister and I to continue on this tradition. Emotionally, I’m tapped out and am thinking about just keeping in contact with my sister. The men in my family are impossible to deal with and bring you the hell down.

We watched “UP’ and the tears were a flowin’. I talked to my sister and she had a big boohoo last night.

I want to distance myself from some and just feel happy.