Would you consider this abusive?

you may have heard this countless times from me… but I am curious if this is by far considered abusive of me…
my boyfriend asks me for money when I am crying – I slap him
I am extremely sick and my boyfriend tells me this is not very important – I slap him
I constantly pay for things because he has no money and he considers me too clingy and always tells me he wants space – I get very upset that he ignores me and that he puts his friends first and when we do see each other I physically push him away

When ever we argue I get irrational and say to him I don’t want to be with him… but straight away I apologies for my behavior
When we broke up I threw a bleach bottle at him and kicked him for making me pay for lunch and other things he wanted to do the day before – I kick him hard too and push him away while he tries to hold me down and calm me…
Is this considered abuse on my behalf? I’m just curious… I don’t want to be or feel this way ever again.

AND we already broken up…. I’m just asking for my own purpose