Can you control yourself?

If your a self harmer, what is the best thing to do?

When I get anxious and I know I need to self harm, I normally try to see past it and hold off. Then I find that when I do, I can cut myself to pieces and make deeper cuts.

If I cut myself straight away, I make pathetic little cuts. But after I don’t feel satisfied, I feel useless for just making scratches.

If I bleed a lot, then I feel great satisfaction and that for those few moments, it was ME that had control over my life.