Why is it hard to Believe Love ??? Why Don't I Believe him ?

Asked by Scarlett (915) July 4th, 2010

Why don’t I believe he really loves-cares about me?

I found things from his past, and no matter how much he tells me he loves me, that he wants us to work out, I still can’t get over his past, which is killing me.

And I can’t get it out of my head either.

I was snooping through his things, and I saw videos he had made with ex girlfriends…..sex videos…..

His PAST is his PAST, but I can’t get over it…...

LOVE to me is to be TREASURED, SACRED, RESPECTED etc… and SEEING and WATCHING These Porn tapes of his,
Made me feel DISGUSTED and ALONE.

It made me feel dirty watching these.

and didn’t make me feel Specia.

No one wants to see the person they are with having sex or doing sexual naked things with anyone else.

I should know that it was in his Past, It’s just hard to get over it.

We live together, I don’t have to pay rent, he pays for all the food, he pays for the dinner and movies, and whatever else I need. He tells me he loves me, and He broke his video camera(((that had one of the video porn he made))), and deleted the video and picture files on his computer.

And he tells me he loves me, that was in his Past, etc. etc.,

I just want to know, what is a way to get over this ????

Anyone have any suggestions??

Or have been through the same thing??

How should I feel, If I know he really has changed ???

I’m just confused.

I love him and want it to work, but when I go to sleep at night time, My mind goes back to the video of him and his ex, and It burns in my mind…....

Someone please tell me how I can get over this

Should I just get over it ????

Thanks