Is it my anxiety or does the stuff that goes bump in the night like me?

I don’t have a myspace account so…maybe you not ill but having side effects from the pills you were taking…try not studing on the paranormal if it causes problems….

Maybe myspace is causing these schizophrenic episodes. :) Just kidding.

I would try doing something relaxing… meditation, therapy, etc. You’d be surprised at what your body is capable of doing when it’s anxious and depressed.

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But seriously, a good bit of this is truly “in your head”. When you mentioned your “aura” all doubt was removed.

As for hearing sounds, even with my hearing (and eyesight) diminished, when I hear strange sounds (even if it sounds like “a growl”), my first thought isn’t “oh, demonic growl”, but “I wonder what kind of animal that is”.

I said this in another thread yesterday, but it applies here: “When you hear hoofbeats, think ‘horses’, not ‘unicorns’.”

Whether or not you have a disorder, your anxiety can be calmed using meditaion techniques that have been around for thousands of years and are very healthy. I recommend Pranayama Yoga for the physical symptoms you are experiencing. As for the other symptoms, I recommend reading ‘Psychic Self Defense” by Dion Fortune. Other people have had the same kinds of experiences and dealt with them very effectively without medication.

Too may meds.

I think it has to do with the man in your attic.

You seem very sure of yourself. You know what isn’t going on. You seem to have an idea of an explanation of these phenomena that you will accept, but perhaps you are looking for confirmation of it? I don’t know. This just doesn’t feel like it’s the whole story.

Do you like the idea of having paranormal talents? Do you want confirmation that the paranormal exists?

Are you looking, on the other hand, for someone to explain away your precognitions? Are you a scientist or a believer or somewhere in between?

Do you really want to find some treatment that will help you? Do you want to learn to cope or do you actually want to get rid of the symptoms?

If you want to cope with the anxiety, you can’t do better than what @stump suggested. If you want a chemical solution, then know that it is very common for people to go through many drugs before finding something or a combination of somethings that work. I know people who have had a dozen or more meds (and haven’t found one that works yet). Others have tried many things, and finally found one that works. Many are also lucky, like me, and had the first med help us a lot, and the second and third filled in the gaps.

I wasn’t fixed immediately. I think it took at least a year before I was stable, and it’s been more than two years now, and while I’m doing well, I am still much more labile than I was, and still in danger of falling back into the abyss. I’m also driving my wife crazy with anxiety. Or maybe that’s her problem? I can’t control her feelings. I can barely control mine.

I guess what I’m saying is that you should first figure out what you want. Do you want to get “well?” Do you want to do it the hard way (on your own), or try to get medical assistance? This is similar to taking an approach to physical health (which most disorders really are), where you know you can take anti-inflammatories and relieve the pain, and you say, “I’m going to do it on my own.” Why? Why refuse the help? Are you a glutton for punishment? If you are, then I have to question whether you really want to get better.

If you want to get better, then I think you should commit yourself to the work involved, understanding it could take years. Keep at it. You will eventually figure out some combination of treatments that work.

By the way, I have complete sympathy for people who don’t want to get “better.” There are times when I wish I were the way I was born instead of the way the medical establishment helps me be. I also know many people who are living with bipolar disorder without meds. Some of them are here—or used to be. It’s not easy, but it does have its moments. Being manic and powerful is an awesome thing, especially if you are a person who is a wimp most of the rest of the time.

Good luck, whatever you choose.