People who abandoned a religion: did you ever have any worries you could be in trouble?

I was raised Catholic. I really believed God was listening when I prayed, my actions were monitored by dead relatives, and there was a Heaven and Hell. I did not want to go to Hell under any circumstances. I believed God created Adam and Eve in a garden, and was confused by scientific evidence to the contrary. Long story short, I don’t believe any of those things any longer and wish I’d never wasted any time believing them.

My question is, how did you feel as you shed your religion? I recall having doubtful thoughts but being nervous I could go to Hell just for thinking them. It took a long time to shake those feelings. Now I feel unshackled, more free than before, but there were times I fled back, apologizing to God for doubting. That is highly unlikely to occur again.

How do you feel now, believing reality likely doesn’t have the grand justice you once envisioned?