What have you done in your life that someone has tried to shame you for?

Shame is very powerful. I know I feel it just about all the time. I feel ashamed for the way I look or how unmanly I am or that I am a man. I am ashamed of how little I make or for my sexual desires, or for how little I do at work. I’m ashamed whenever someone tells me I hurt them or did something wrong. Every time I look up, it seems like there’s something I’m ashamed of doing. Hell, I’m even ashamed of fluthering. But the nice thing about fluther is that you can expose your shame and think about it and be abused for it and it doesn’t matter in real life.

It’s weird not feeling like you are ever right. It is weird feeling judged for whatever I do (no matter whether I am judged or not). I’ve learned to soldier on and to pretend I know what I’m talking about even though I’m pretty sure everyone else will secretly think I’m wrong, if not outrightly telling me I’ve fucked up yet again.

But enough about me. You can see I’m a mess. I seriously doubt anyone could be more ashamed than I am. Still, I hope that others will think about this, and describe some of the things that shame them, if any.

Then I hope people will talk about why these behaviors are shameful, or why they believe it is shameful. It’s a rather sensitive question I’m sure, and I’m somewhat ashamed to even ask it, although you can see that hasn’t stopped me. Once you’ve been in the moral cesspool long enough, it doesn’t matter any more. I yam what I yam.