Can I skip Thanksgiving?

I’m not usually a holiday hater. In fact, I usually love the holidays. This year I have had a bad mood growing all week, directly related to the holidays approaching, and it just untouchable. I don’t ever recall being so moody and grouchy for such a stretch of time in my life. I keep catching myself daydreaming about sleeping through Thanksgiving and not waking up until it’s over. I’m pretty sure it is directly related to the fact that last Thanksgiving was the last time I spoke to my grandmother face to face before she died. I spent my Thanksgiving evening in the ICU with her, and we were very close. I think I’m just depressed.

I spent the day with my family today, and I am still in a crap mood. I figured that would make me feel better, but I honestly think it made things worse.

So.. it would be courteous of me to avoid the festivities, right? Rather than ruin everyone’s good time with my lousy mood. Am I just being selfish?