Will I always be afraid of men?

I am 19 years old and I have never had a boyfriend. I am terrified of being in a relationship. I always get asked out by guys I either find unattractive or I don’t have any kind of romantic feeling for that person. I know romance takes time in a relationship, but it is so important for me to feel compfortable around that person first. When I was five years old, I was molested by my baby sitter. If I’m even asked out…I’ll break down later because I am so tired and so ashamed of feeling uncomfortable around guys. It’s always the wrong guy that asks me. They were very nice, but I just didn’t feel very comfortable. I was at this christian event once when I was 16 and this guy asked me to the dance with him that would take place later that night. I felt so uncomfortable and he wasn’t even attractive, but I told myself “You know if you don’t take a chance, you will never get over this”. So I took that chance and went with him. After the dance we sat down and he had his arm around me. At that point I couldn’t take it anymore. I got up and told him I’d be right back, but I never went back….I quickly went back to my hotel room and started sobbing hysterically. After that night, I told myself that I will probably never deserve the chance of really connecting with someone. When I go to weddings or see how my friends boyfriends treat them I get very envious. I want to feel infatuated when I meet someone who may feel the same way. I want to feel that way so that the fear isn’t there. That may bring heart break if it wouldn’t work out…but I just can’t handle feeling uncomfortable. I have gone to counseling for this, but nothing has worked. Maybe I was never meant for any of it…. I’m afraid that the incident that happened to me when I was a little girl has robbed me of that chance of ever finding someone I could really fall in love with and enjoy being with because of the fear that takes over. If anyone has any helpful advice that would be very much appreciated.