Do you ever feel like you need a major change in your life?

I went far away to college. I don’t like it, but am stuck here until I finish pharmacy school in, oh… four more years… I was unhappy for a long time, and thought that a lot of it had to do with the long distance relationship I was in. I felt like it was holding me back.

Long story short, after sub-consciously starting fights and pushing him away, I made a huge changed and I ended it. It was very rough, but I had met someone else that made me very happy. I figured that might fix things. Trade something that made (or I thought made) me unhappy for something that would make me happy.

Four months later, and I still don’t feel right. If anything, I feel worse. It only further pointed out that my unhappiness was not rooted in a bad relationship, but was instead rooted within myself. Now, it’s all just a mess with a hurt ex and a confused boyfriend taken as casualties… I need something to change, but I don’t know what exactly, or how to go about it… I don’t want to change my major, and therefore can’t change my classes. I can’t change where I live until next year. I can’t change the awful classes I’m taking. And if I hurt another guy, I will not forgive myself. What can I change? Every time I make a big decision, it seems to just end up hurting other people and not turning out how I’d hoped, so now I just feel rather helpless. I feel like I’m just stuck.

Anyone else ever feel this way?