A very sudden breakup - why has this happened?

I am really struggling with my recent breakup from my ex less than 2 weeks ago. I did meet her on the internet. We met around 5 months ago now, and we chatted on the phone for ages nearly everyday.

She told me about her previous relationship of 12 years, and that was a rough ride, and has gone through tremendous trauma. She does have a daughter of 8 years old. She had everything with him – and all of sudden when she discovered the truth about him, she took her daughter and left him. She is a faithful Christian (anglican) and lives by the bible. So it been just over 2 years since she left him, and has been just her and her daughter. Divorce was all settled.

So we met on the site, started chatting on the phone, and connection was amazing. Went on 2 dates, and the 2nd date we did meet up in London. Was a great day, however she did get cold feet, made out she was ill – but admitted she got scared. Around 2 weeks later, we started meeting up again, and things really started to move positively.

We confessed our love for each other. There were issues with her daughter, couldn’t handle me staying over at night – and the crying and screaming was sometimes unbearable. But during the day was ok – and I did my best to really make an effort with the whole situation. I helped my ex move in to her new house, and funnily enough things started going a bit sour after I moved her in. She occasionally started going cold – saying we were different – its just so odd. Anyway the weekend before last – went to Southend for the day, everything was fine. Complained about my driving a bit, and I did sense something off there for some reason. We came back, her daughter went straight to bed, we chilled out got quite intimate and she even said she wanted my babies and touched my heart so much.

Sunday came along, was a normal day – I cooked her a lovely lunch, got a bit more intimate before hand and went for a walk. But I still feel now, as soon as we went for that walk – something changed again, and its as if she has a Jekyl and Hyde character so hard to explain. We came back, and we sat on the sofa – and she just didn’t want me to touch her at all – just got so cold. She said some really hurtful things like, she finds being with me stressful, and something inside me tells me it wasn’t her saying it and even hurts now writing about all this.

So I decided to leave earlier than planned – as just thought she needed space. She phoned me that Monday night, and said it was over and kept saying it was her gut feelings – I just feel its all excuses. I really am finding this so hard, and I cant see a way out of any of this, and constantly think about suicide – as I just want answeres, and why this happened and why this has happened so quick. Thanks to anyone who reads this, and anyone who can help me. I am hurting so so bad.