Am I the bad kisser here?

I have been seeing a guy for over 2 months. We talk every night and see each other once or twice a week. Things have been going well despite no kiss. Last night he seem to have been stalling as if he wanted a kiss….and I was getting tired of waiting for a kiss so I did it.

I gave him a peck on the lips. Then we slowly went into a kiss and I thought it was going to be a good moment until we really kissed…His kisses were like this… tongue, kiss, tongue kiss. In between the kisses…the tounging was very short for like a milisecond and not enough time to french. Also, his technique didn’t seem compatible with mine because he kept trying to go fast with his tongue. He tried kissing me when my mouth was still open too!

I tried to follow his way but it was just awkward and all over the place. I went inside my house after…4 hours later I was feeling embarassment and disappointment.

I really like him but that wasn’t a good kiss. It wasn’t disgusting…just awkward. =(

I’m afraid that he thinks I’m terrible now. This is really embarassing, I don’t think I ever felt like this in forever