What does it mean for me being a destructive person?

Well like the question says, I was always destructive when I was a kid, had a big imagination and energy…Along with no friends, and a sword and a shield. But the explanation for that was because I thought I was Link from Zelda since he was my childhood idol and i wanted to be just like him. So I always pretended I was him, along with other characters from other games, but it was always Link… Now that I’m older 14 in highschool, I’m still a destructive guy…I don’t have any explanations for it, I mean I’m calm and content majority of the time, but the thing is, is that when ever I see something I can see myself doing I do it… For example my knife throwing, I saw me doing it…So I did, just that sometimes I can’t control on where I do it, so I eventually end up wrecking something up (My dresser, book cases,doors etc.)

But the whole reason I’m bringing this all up is since me and my mom got into a fight, her yelling at me cursing telling me that I’m an ass-hole, I’m an ingrate, saying that she hates her life… And much other stuff… But rather I say to other individually. But just that when she yells at me, makes me think that there’s something wrong with me… And she just ends up making me feel like crap. Also adding on that I don’t like getting yelled at or scolded in general.

Overall I can’t say what the main reason is for me being so destructive… All I can say is that it’s in my personality, and I can’t change it… But also that and the issue with me and my mom…But I mean she’s worked hard, but she doesn’t get much back in return since people suck… And the main reason is that since of her stupid boyfriend issues…But help..? Can’t say I’m in the best of my shapes…