Do you ever disbelieve your own feelings?

There are people who seem to be faking or exaggerating a feeling, and others may not believe them. This is different. I wonder if there are times when you feel something, but you think you are faking it to yourself?

You’d think we would know if we were trying to fool ourselves, right? But there have been times in my life when I look at what I’m feeling and I think that I must be trying to manipulate someone by pleading a sob story of some kind. So even though I feel bad, I won’t let myself express it because I don’t want to manipulate anyone. Maybe I am deserving of the attention, but I don’t know if I am or not and I don’t want anyone to accuse me of trying to manipulate them, so I try really hard to handle things on my own, even when I really want some sympathy.

This is not something I am doing now, but it is something I have done in the past.