Is there anything valuable to be gained for those left behind after a person takes his/her own life?

I’m wrestling with the grief of losing a friend and former lover. It’s early days yet, and I vacillate between numbness and waves of emotions. I spend most of my time in mindless distractions or napping.

Other than the standard cliche of renewing one’s appreciation for life, what’s to be learned?

For those concerned, I am in touch with my therapist and other caregivers. I am not alone at present. I am receiving help and good counsel.