8 yr relationship ended. Need opinions & advice?

need support/ opinions/advice

it has been a little over month now since The man I love left me after 8 years together, and 15 years of knowing each other. He says he’s too busy working and bla blah blah… He says he still loves me.? He just doesn’t have anything to offer me especially time. He said its something he has to do even if he regrets it. I’m completely crushed. What’s even more confusing is he stated he still wants me in his life& can’t not see me in his life & that I’m his best friend. That just .. I don’t know . I don’t know if I can be his friend after everything..At least not for a long long time… If ever.
I want him back so badly. a Few hours after he broke up with me he texted me asking how I was doing& to be honest about how I was feeling. I don’t know what to do other than keep moving forward with NC.

Just to give you some more info- he said he’s too busy because he works like 80 hours a wk plus he’s a drummer in 2 bands. I told him if you care about someone it didn’t matter how busy you are, you make time for them. His reply was that’s easier said than done. This is **** in my eyes. I’m basically being pushed aside because he’d rather just play music. I have supported his dream this entire time but always get the **** end of the stick. This is not the first time he has pushed me away. He even stated that the last time we broke up he was miserable. i tried to explain to him thats what you feel when you lose someone you love.. but it didn’t matter what i said or did, he wouldn’t change his mind.. ( not sure what he expects to happen when i disappear)

I am heartbroken and feel so neglected & disrespected by him.. This time I am standing my ground. If I stick around and be all buddy buddy with him two things are going to happen. He’s going to try to sleep with me & he’s not going to realize what he has because he’ll think no matter how badly he treats me
he can do whatever he wants & ill always be there… The day he broke it off he was liking **** on my Facebook!! *** am I Living in the twilight zone?!!

-I stopped using all social media. Deactivated my FB about a week ago ( he was liking things on my page while also posting photos of how fantastic his life is)
I have literally fell off the planet. i have not spoken/called/texted anything and it has been 1 month now since he broke up with me. i am pretty sure he is already seeing someone.. i am devastated. I am trying so hard to keep to together and pretend that i am fine. Guess i am just looking for some comforting words & if anyone has been in this position before.
I feel as if I have wasted so many years only to be thrown in the trash.. It really hit me like a ton of bricks today. I’m not sure about anything anymore.