Requiring a clear point of view?

This may sound crass.

A resident died this weekend. She was in a very bad shape for a long time. Due to the nature of her illness she could only have limited medications.

Despite being in the dementia unit she did not have Alzheimer’s her memory problems came from fluid in her brain and trouble focusing due to pain. She was never really comfortable and always restless and exhausted.

She had been in and out of hospital and all of the employees in the area at least knew her quality of life was simply terrible, she was a tough one to watch. Especially since there was so little to be done.

Her family very regular visitors to begin with dropped off in line with her decline.

When they came to clean out her room of personal effects. They, one lady in particular made her grief very public. They were all from town and to be frank I had a hard time repressing my anger. Being compassionate or sensitive felt beyond reasonable expectation.

It seemed to me that it would be crueler and selfish to want her to live especially when it had gotten to hard for them to visit or to stay more then 15 min maximum. This has been developing over a year so it shouldn’t have been a shock.

Any how I will encounter them tomorrow and probably longer at the current ratio of wailing and dramatics to packing.

Sigh, yes I am burning out in my job. But I don’t feel that would change any of the facts. In fact I would say that my anger comes because I deeply struggled with her situation her humor and sparkle in her good moments in contrast to hopelessness and confusion and pain mixed wth my helplessness. The time I did put in trying what no one else tried catering to her and trying to distract her.

How can I better see the situation and be able to handle it with much more grace and less repressed anger?