How can I start liking Breaking Bad?

I know that its creators must be brilliant for the show to be so popular, but it’s full of sick things. It’s supposed to be a smart show, which seems to imply that its audience was intended to be the sophisticated type, but I see it as being the more sophisticated thing to be repulsed by the stuff in that show. How do fans of that show react to the murders? With enthusiasm? With neutrality? I personally react by becoming disturbed and wanting to stop watching. I mean, it’s important to cover issues like moral gray areas and the nature of “evil”, so if covering these topics is the point of Breaking Bad, I’m fine with that. The distracting thing is that I don’t know where there’s room left to find it entertaining what with all the things that bother me about the show.

I, if the kind of things that were happening in this show happened around me, wouldn’t react to them like any of these characters, besides Skylar (and fans can’t stand her because she complains that what Walt does is wrong, so are they watching the show for the wrong reasons, or am I missing something?). So, I never seem to get why the characters do any of the despicable things they do. And each time Walter makes another choice that leads him further down the wrong path, it never seems like a choice that couldn’t have easily been handled a different way. So the question occurs to me, are we supposed to take this show literally, or just accept that the characters are motivated to do what they do, without asking why?

Or is it that I should already relate to the way they tell the story so much that the show doesn’t seem subtle at all to me? I’ve had the same experience with things I didn’t like at first because I was unable to put them in context. Like I said, an analysis of the nature of morality is an important discussion to have, so it’s not a matter of being so lowbrow that I don’t get it, it’s a matter of how the subject is presented within the show.

And I also don’t get why stretch the show out so far. I know the point of the show is to show you this guy’s transformation, and that this sort of thing doesn’t happen overnight, but it makes it even more difficult to put up with him. I found it hard in the beginning to connect with him, because
1) the pilot was so subtle that if we were being given enough clues to how on the verge of a breakdown he was, I missed them, and didn’t feel like he was realistically motivated to do either what he did in the early episodes, or what he did way worse later. Am I supposed to feel connected to this character? Relate to him? Make an excuse for everything he does, like some fans do?
2) it’s pretty clear to me how unacceptable the things he does are, so I was from early on unable to relate. It’s not easy to relate to a character so much older than me who acts younger than me. Or is it a matter of having learned the lessons I have but deliberately disregarding them? I still don’t see how if he actually sees these things as wrong he can still go on. Everyone on this show does that. They act like what they’ve done is wrong at the time, basically, and then afterward they just act like nothing happened, as if it doesn’t bother them. If they really think what they’ve done is wrong, it would be a more relatable show to me if there was more of a sign of it, like them not just doing the same kind of thing that led to whoever died this time over and over again.

I have liked some stories about antiheroes, but it’s just a matter of the way the information is presented. Things like this show, the Sopranos, and Godfather have never appealed to me, but some movies and books have. So again, I’m not just ignorant, and should not just be assumed to be in over my head when watching adult material.
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Lastly: I’m not trying to prove that this show is a waste of time, I’m honestly asking what I’m missing, so that if anyone can tell me I can listen. The point of this question is to see whether I can get myself to come around.