Can you offer me any suggestions on how to overcome my intense hatred of wearing a retainer?

My teeth were a scraggly mess when I was a kid. It was bad. I got braces. They came off sometime in Jr. High, and I wore a retainer at night until I lost it in college at some point.

My teeth started shifting back to their old positions, so when I was in my mid-20’s I got braces again.

At that time I got a retainer, which I still have.

Well, my teeth are shifting again, and I really need to wear my retainer at night….but it drives me absolutely INSANE. I hate it so bad. I literally feel like clawing through the wall (and I’m using literally literally.) It puts this throbbing pressure on my teeth and I just feel this rage building up inside of me. I keep trying to wear them, but can’t make it 15 minutes before I have to just rip them off.

How can I over come this?