Would you do what I want to do?

I’m in college right now. I have just over 65 credits completed and have a 3.283 GPA. This semester, I’m taking 3 intro classes (intro to education, computer science, and physics), a 1-credit ed class, and an upper-level math class. My major is math, and the intro-classes are required for my major. The ed classes are because I want to teach. I’m doing great in my 1-credit ed class and my math class, but struggling in the three intro classes. I’ve withdrew from two of them, and the last one is not going so well either.
I don’t think I have the mind for college, either. I have to pass a writing exam if I want to register for classes next semester, so that’s another problem lingering over my head since I suck at writing. I left my intro to ed class because of the amount of reading and writing (each week we had to read, like, a 150-page book written by some doctor who uses fancy words and 6+ line sentences). I can’t understand textbooks well, either. I have problems processing the information.

(So yeah I can’t even register for classes yet because of this, and now I’m behind in classes.)

I’m so fed up with it. It’s not just because I’m struggling this semester, I’ve felt this way before as well. Struggling only increases my desire to leave because now it’s easier to. I don’t like the environment. It’s not really about learning, it’s about good grades->high GPA->high-paying job. Because of this, professors tend to take on the role as authoritative figures who are given so much power over my outcome. More than once have I felt like I’ve been treated as a “lesser” or a delinquent. I also don’t like the amount of money I have to fork over for it. It seems like way too much, and I see it going towards things I find completely unnecessary. Also, colleges claim to be “non-profit”, but they still gain capital through loopholes. And that chancellor and that president sure make a pretty penny. I think “idealistic idea” of college is great and the education would be valuable, but realistically, the price means it’s only accessible to people who have cases and cases of cash sitting around. And, all it does it support a broken economy. Blah blah blah more moral, political stuff that makes me hate school.

As far as money goes, I pay $0 for tuition. That’s covered by 3 grants I get: two from school, and one from FAFSA. All are for education. I lost my full-time status by withdrawing, and my GPA is in jeopardy, so I know I’m losing at least two of the three. I’ll have to look at the third. My parents set up a savings account for my brother and me for education, and so they use that to pay half my rent. So I have a safety net. With working my minimum wage job on the weekend, I’m basically breaking even since I’m buying food and other provisions. If I had more time, I’d cook more and save money.

So, here’s what I want to do: I want to leave school. For good? I don’t know. I still really want to teach. I have a part-time job working fast food, and I’m nearly positive they can bump me to “full” time, meaning averaging 40hrs/week. I would really like to tutor, but I can’t seem to get that started. I’ve budgeted myself, and I can be self-supportive since I’m pretty low-maintenance.

Another big problem is that I have to somehow explain this to my parents and my family. In another thread, Jellies helped me with this, but I still just can’t break it to them, and I’m running out of time. I feel pressured into it, whether that’s a good thing or not. I’m sick of people saying I should focus basically my whole current life on studying. Study study study! The only thing you should be worrying about is studying! You live 30 minutes away from school?! That might distract you from your studies! Is this truly beneficial advice? I’m scared to hear what they think about me leaving. They already think I’m some sort of invalid for not being religious. And having to constantly see them will make this a recurring stress for me to deal with. I already deal with the fact that I don’t believe the same things as them, and they just seem to be getting over that.

There are so many people who wish they could go to college to get a better job and can’t, and I feel like I’m taking that for granted. I feel like I really have no sense of what it’s like to live and support yourself without a college education, but yet I still feel like it’s something I can do. It’s like I’m taking for granted a privilege I have. But then I see organizations like one that’s through my school that pays high schoolers to sit in a room with tutors and work on schoolwork for four hours after school Monday through Thursday. I think that’s sooooo bogus.

So pretend you’re in my situation. Would you leave if you felt school was against your morals, yet seemed like the only way to be successful and felt pressured into it? What would you do?