Do you think an emotionally-abused person is going to be a good parent?

As a person that has been emotionally-abused all my life, I’m afraid I might not be a good parent someday. As kids, my brother and I were physically-abused by our father, telling us it’s discipline, after smashing a toy on my brother’s head making it bleed. I was also raped by a relative as a kid and I did not know I was raped until I turned 10. As a teen, my parents have been neglectful, they never bring me to the hospital unless I’m peeing blood or dying. They also control me using money. They do not want me to move out of the house and take a job. These experiences made me extremely depressed and anxious about myself, I don’t even feel like I’m human. I also asked them for help for the nth time so I can see a psychologist/psychiatrist but I’m just ignored again.

I’m a young adult now, and I’m afraid I might be abusive to my kids, too, like my parents. I’ve been dreaming of a good and loving family, I want to listen to them, to support them, to love them genuinely and unconditionally. I want to be friends with them. I want to be whoever my parents never became. But there’s also a big part of me that is scared I might be like them, and if that happened I know I’ll probably hate myself. Are there people here who came from the same family that has now their own families? How is your family now? Do you sometimes see yourself like your abusive parent/s?