How to get my Peace of mind back?

When I was younger I had not a care in the world. I lived my life and had fun. I never really thought about death or was afraid of death. I just knew we lived then we died.

Now a days, I have so much on my mind. Due to that I have developed anxiety and depression. It is preventing me from living my life. Sometimes I think why should I do this or that when I might die any day now. The tragic events around the world are not helping either. Every single day there is something bad happening. It makes me not want to watch the news anymore.

I’m always hoping for the best and expecting the worse at the same time. With these recent attacks around the world I am always worried one will happen to me and my loved ones. Especially when we are in Church. Which are potential targets. Deep down I know the chances of it happening are slim to none. However I just cannot get the thought out of my head.

I figure when I was younger I did not fully comprehend the things were happening around me. As I got older and began to learn new things about life my anxiety and curiosity began to grow.

Being 27 and living with my parents is pretty hard. Especially when it come to relationships. I have a job but it does not pay well at all. I am always angry and tired and very anti-social. I often look down when I walk and ignore women when they give me looks or attention.

I just feel my life is all over the place at the moment. The thing about me is I am always helping someone out with something. Therefore I never have time for myself. I’ve just wasted so much time, opportunities and talent. Thoughts of what I could of become just keeps haunting me.