Do you ever find yourself analysing your spirituality, religious beliefs or lack of?

Ok I’m going to just be very honest about myself. I am extremely analytical and I have changed my religious views many times over the years.

I was Catholic for 18 years, then I eventually rejected that become pretty much impartial agnostic and then just atheist. After over a decade of atheism I started to become very interested deism. I was convinced that there could very likely be a very good and reasonable argument for deism. But after much reading and researching; I had to come to the conclusion that there really isn’t sufficient evidence even for a deist concept of a God.

So I guess I’m kind of back on “team atheist again”. Basically I’m pretty much an agnostic-atheist (with a soft spot for deism). I think if there is to be a higher being who created the universe (or universes) it’s going to be a non-personal deist concept of a God. But based on the information available right now, I cannot claim to have the knowledge that such a bing exists. I also cannot commit to such a belief without the bases of such knowledge.

I guess the question I have to ask myself is not why I keep changing my mind. But why I keep coming back to “this” position?