Anyone else just feel hopeless?

I don’t know.
I’m really struggling.
I also want to add I am not suicidal, I promise.
I’m working on getting back with my doctor and I’m going to call to make an appointment with a school counselor in the meantime.
I started college, thinking I was going to be happy to start a new school. I’m not. I know that my majors are things I want to do and like, but I just… don’t feel right. I feel like I’m losing myself and I don’t get it.
The past 6–7 months or so, have been horrible for me. I was doing better over the summer but now things suck again.
I don’t really know why I’m posting this. I can’t even explain in proper words how lost I feel.
Is it normal to feel this hopeless in college? I feel empty again and I hate it. Its really bad this time.
I’m not suicidal. I’m just not seeing the point in things right now.