Am I socially awkward, an introvert, just boring, or something else?

• As an introvert, I was very shy and hate being around people.
• But I turned out love and want to meeting new people, hanging out with friends and experiencing new things. So I thought, maybe I’m not an introvert (anymore).
• But still, I’m extremely bad at talking to people.
• I still like to spend some quality time for myself.
• I’m very calm and control my emotions pretty well.
• When I meet a new friend, we often get on pretty well, but then I’d run out of topic and feel super awkward because I barely start the conversations.
• When I see someone I knew in public places, I find it hard to choose if i should say hi to them. And then I’d beat myself up for not friendly say hi too them.
• When I do something or say something embarassing, I mumble to myself words like “weird” and ’‘weirdo” multiple times.
• I don’t have a lot of friends.
• I can do public speak pretty well.
• At a party, you would see me awkwardly sitting alone, take a sip of water one by one, watching people dancing, considering if I should pull my phone out of my pocket or not, and if I pull it out and use it, should I put in on the table or below the table? Nah maybe I shouldn’t pull it out. Somebody talk to me please.