Do you hold tightly to what harms you?

For instance a friend was concerned that I was suicidal and prayed that what ended up with me believing that I was trapped in a time loop. At first it was distribing then I found that I can cheat at life and became dependent on it for over 26,500+ years.

What are my alternatives to stop the time loop? Who can break the spell? I have tried psychologists, psychiatrists, priests and self help books. How do I take charge of of my condition, and learn how to Master my time traveling? To help me out more?

Am I normal? Or do you cling to your poison (kryptonite) too?