Why did you decline my friend request?

Hi! My name is Shenae, I’m 24 year old girl that lives in Colorado. I’m outgoing, gregarious, caring, kind, funny, bright and someone dependable and much much more. I’m one of those people you call late at night if you can’t sleep and need someone to talk to.

I’m considered a perfect friend but…........why do I have no friends? I’m completely baffled by this! I’m typing this right now because it’s been bothering me so much I just don’t know what to do!

It’s just so frustrating when my boyfriend who smokes pot, drinks hard and is very anal and sometimes just a complete ass; has people calling wanting to hang out all the time!

I admit! I’m very jealous because if we get into a spat or anything he can always go chill out at so and so’s house where as my chill out zone would be none other than the library!

I do have like 2 or 3 people I speak to in real life but they aren’t necessarily friends because they always flake out on me or I hear from them months at a time. Now, I did have a lot of guy friends but that doesn’t work out very well in my relationship because there’s no way my boyfriend would be comfortable with the idea of a bunch of guys over with is girlfriend playing video games, hah!

I do go out and like I said I am very friendly, I usually end up exchanging numbers and thinking “Hey, hopefully this can become a friendship!” I do follow ups and nothing ever goes through.

I keep a journal just so I have someone else to “talk” to besides my boyfriend——sometimes, I think my psychiatrist is my closest friend but it’s sad because I have to pay for him!

I guess I’m just looking for any kind of thoughts, feedback, etc, It’d help me somewhat :)

thanks in advance!