Would someone please tell me why I am doing this?

Asked by loser (15032) February 5th, 2009 from iPhone

My girlfriend told me that she “couldn’t handle being with me” because I am a guy and she would rather be with a woman. But we’re still living together, sharing the same bed. It’s like torture. I don’t know whether to grieve or not. Sometimes I think she gives me just enough hope to stay with her so she can afford the rent and so I’ll take care of her dogs. She constantly hurts me with little things that she does but then she’ll want to have sex and I think that we’re okay, until she does something hurtful again. Somebody give me a reality check, please. I am so hurt and confused right now. I don’t want to just move out and leave her strapped and it’s starting to feel like suicide is the only way out.