Have you ever had a major meltdown? What happened?

I have a dual purpose for this question. First, I am interested in how people have understood their own major meltdowns, and what they did about them. I’d also appreciate knowing what you think lead to this meltdown. And, as usual, please describe what happened.

My second point is to notify people that I am back in my own skin. Alot of people have asked me to inform them when this happens, and this is the most effective way I know.

I guess I had a mental meltdown of some kind, over an issue I still care about, but that probably wasn’t worth disappearing over. I’m sorry that I behaved that way, and worried a number of people. Sometimes I get these flare-ups of low self-esteem and I make very questionable decisions.

Some of us have banded together to set in place a backup system. We hope to prevent this problem should any one of a number of us disappear unexpectedly again. Anyone who would like to join this system is welcome. Jeruba has been assigning buddies who are responsible for keeping an eye on each other (in a non-stalkerish way).

Finally, I hope people will let me know whether they asked for forgiveness as I am asking forgiveness now.. If so, were you forgiven for the meltdown, as I hope people will please forgive me now? I am sorry for the worry I caused. I’m ashamed of the way I behaved and I will do my very best to not do this sort of thing again.