How to deal with divorce?

I posted on here a couple of weeks ago about a situation I was in and currently still am. My wife told me she wanted a divorce and so I left. I got a lot of great advice from people on here which I certainly appreciate. She denied ever saying the word “divorce”. Now she’s told everybody that I just gave up and left, which is not true. She won’t talk to me, return any emails or text messages. I have asked her to recosider getting a divorce. This is a person who says everything is my fault, told me that I was the one that needed to make changes and not her. All my friends and family have said they noticed how much she tore me down and broke me down all the time. Even though I can honestly see that now, that doesn’t erase the fact that I still love her. After one counseling session she said she was going to cancel the counseling, come to find out that she hasn’t and is still going by herself. I’m not going to contact her anymore because all that does is make matters worse. I don’t know if she’s even made plans to get an attorney, but I have to assume that she is and so now I’m just trying to prepare myself for the day when I do get served. If anyone reading this was in my situation, right now, would you hold out hope that maybe she’ll call and want to work things out or would you accept it for what it is and move on? I’m just taking it one day at a time, putting one foot in front of the other, hoping that I can get over this. If interested, please let me know what you would do. Thank you.