Need a reality check, medication (drugs) are involved, if you please?

If you wish to comment on my immorality please keep it short, so I may concentrate on something that I need. Medications have always had a eccentric effect on me. At the moment I have a lot of benzos in my system, I’ve already had to reschedule an appointment. The efficacy dose never works but when I take a “therapeutic dose” it turns out to be an overdose. I’m working on changing meds. From their introduction meds are hailed as a life preserver that we can never take off. To take them religiously is the order of the day. I’m spacey and shuffling around like some Asian version of Ozzy Osborne. Just a little reality check will do. If this is inappropriate content I’ll abandon the question