Would you rather be gay?

I’ve seen enough to live happily with out having a relationship or just turn gay (i’m a girl)..... or maybe I haven’t met the right person yet….. But I don’t want to wait…I don’t like the idea of being with some one when in the back of your mind your secretly thinking if things went bad… don’t worry there are other fish in the sea…. i’ve heard this so many times but personally I don’t do that.
Also, most people around my age… probably 95% of them going party, drink, go clubbing (which I don’t do or plan to because I don’t see the ‘fun’ in feeling dizzy and sick or having extremely loud music blow your brains out).... and why is it that guys (or girls) say they like one person and make out with any one who’s available for the position of ‘f*** buddy’. Until after my first relationship I never knew some one could be so hurtful, you give everything you’ve got and at the beginning they tell you the most wonderful things and by the end they can do such horrible things to you.
what is the point anymore….?