Best Friend or More?

I met Andrew when we were freshmen in college through my room mate. Andrew and I would constantly hang out together, and we both developed little crushes. He was the first to kiss me, and the first to initiate hand-holding. It all sounds pathetic, but he is extremely hard-headed and brawny, and for him to do little things like that meant a lot.

Well, he asked my room mate what she thought about us. Her response? That I didn’t like him nearly as much as he liked me. (My room mate liked him). Anyways, it messed things up, and the cuddling and hand-holding immediately stopped. I was completely clueless as to what happened, and everytime I tried to talk to him he would completely shut me out.

We stayed best friends, and even have the occasional cuddling session. This past month we’ve spent almost every weekend together. I know for a fact that he hasn’t dated anyone since, and he’s really timid about girls. The problem is that I think I still really like him, and I can’t tell if he just felt shot down because of my room mates jealousy years ago.

He did tell me in the very beginning that he wasn’t looking to have a girlfriend, and even at one point asked me when he was drunk if I knew that we could never be together. But I feel like it was more to just evoke a reaction from me.

Two years have passed, but the way he looks at me is the same. He’s always finding a way to get closer to me and be around me, and everyone is constantly asking if we’re together. I’ve developed such strong feelings and they won’t seem to go away no matter how hard I try. He does small things to show he still cares, but in reality, it could just be his personality. He can be really rude and snide, and pushes me away at times, so I’m really lost as to what’s going on.

Help!