Why am I so conflicted about finding out the gender of my unborn child?

Hi. I’m 24 weeks pregnant. From the very beginning of my pregnancy I was so impatient to find out the sex of our baby. As it is our first, there is not much difference for me whether it’ll be a girl or a boy. When I was just 16 weeks we had an ultrasound and the doctor said it’s a girl. I was a little bit disappointed, but then got used to it.

After some time I started to feel that the doctor could have been wrong. I searched the web and found a lot of stories when another gender was predicted and another was born.

Sometimes I badly hope that the next ultrasound will show that the previous result had been wrong. But there are moments when I am so happy that we are going to have a girl. I don’t know what to do with this controversial feelings.