What do you think is your reputation on fluther? What do you want it to be?

It is going to be really hard to be honest about this. It is also complex because different groups of people think differently about the same thing.

I think I have a reputation for being honest and disclosing a lot. I think some people think I disclose too much and that it is a kind of attention grabbing thing.

I’m not sure what people think about my jokes. I get the sense that some find them funny, but most find them annoying or tiresome. The same with my shaggy dog tales.

I think some people think I am wise, but that view is by no means universally shared. Other people worry about me—and are always looking for signs of illness. I also think people, in general, are wary of arguing with me. I don’t know if that’s because they are afraid I’ll flip out or if they think I’ll give them a hard time or if it’s because the stuff I say is hard to argue with a lot of the time.

What would I like my reputation to be? I wish I were kinder and more lovable. I wish more people thought I was funny. I wish I wasn’t seen as so volatile or unstable.
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