Why at 35 do I still have 20 year attraction to the anime character Salior Jupiter?

How can I meet someone in real life who compares… maybe Its the voice actress who I like, or the looks and I can hire someone to make a novelty marriage episode with me inside. Or is it a person who is both tough and soft at the same time? I don’t know how to move on from fictional characters to real dating? I refuse 100% matches on dating sites, I’ve moved on from real relationships with real women from university but I still like sailor Jupiter Lita Kino. I feel like Thantos from Marvels comic books who has fallen in love with a statue of death, except I want to be BFF with someone, and Sailor Jupiter embodies the true meaning of friendship to me. I was 15 when she was 16 so maybe I liked the older girl?