Is it possible for traumatic events to create a pseudo-seasonal affected disorder?
Firstly, I’m not talking about the traditional diagnosis of SAD – seasonal affected disorder, which I believe occurs due to lack of light.
I find that every year in Autumn/ Fall I get incredibly anxious, experience an impending sense of doom, worry extensively and do seem to get more introverted. However, for some reason it seems very much associated with the weather, the cold, the nights etc. but on a deeper level of memories rather than just seasonal changes.
I find myself remembering horrible times in my past and they literally fill me with dread, through what seems to be the cold. The trouble is..these horrible times have occurred throughout other seasons too and only seem to take a hold on me in the colder months. I’m reluctant to think this is -‘merely’ (with all due respect) SAD.
I’m constantly dealing with my past through counselling and I’m getting there…. but I can’t help but think that there’s something more, something deeper going on here… I’m not sure if I’ve explained myself properly or at all clearly so please forgive me and I will elaborate if needs be x
Will this last for the rest of my life, every time fall comes around regardless of how much I deal with the traumatic events?