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Does anyone else feel like they're on the inside looking out?

Asked by BBawlight (2187 points ) December 4th, 2012

I feel like this often and I always notice when it happens.
I start moving and noticing the things around me and think, “I can move my arm… I’m walking… Why am I doing this? How do I know that I’m doing this? Am I really doing this? How can I hear myself talk, when I don’t hear a voice? I just know what it means…”

I never get these answers, but I suppose it has something to do with my mind-body separation process. My mind feels separate from my body somehow, and it’s like I’m in a body-suit. Like I’m on the inside looking out and my mind is the real ‘me’ that people can’t see. Then I feel a sudden connection, like they are the same thing, and I start asking those questions.

“Is this my arm? Is this my body?” Stuff like this is common, but it fades away and I feel separated again.

I do this voluntarily as well. When I feel pain or some other trauma inflicted onto my body, I think “This is not real. I don’t feel this.” And my face becomes stoic. I can either do it instinctively or not… It depends on my mindset at the time.

Does anyone feel similarly? Do you sometimes feel ‘on the inside looking out”?

Oh… This is my 40th question on here! Yay.

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janbb's avatar

“This is not my beautiful house, this is not my beautiful wife…”

You’re describing a process called disassociation. I have felt it sometimes particularly when lying on the grass looking up at the sky. I think if you feel it a great part of the time, you might want to consider talking to a therapist about it.

bookish1's avatar

Yes, I used to experience both schizoid dissociation and mystical experiences pretty frequently.
I can summon up the feeling anytime now, but it’s no longer my default.

burntbonez's avatar

I don’t really have this, but I do know of exercises that are used to ground autistic children. I bet they would help you in situations like this.

To become embodied, you need to have someone hold onto your arms and kind of massage them from bicep down to the forearm. Being grasped strongly and firmly helps. It teaches you where your body is. It’s kind of cool.

OfAwesome's avatar

This happens to me all the time… sometimes I actually like the feeling because it feels like I am gliding among people and that don’t know I’m there. But really they do. I ask myself questions like “is this really my body” or “why can’t I just be that person over there?” These questions don’t have answers…
I feel like I am the only one who really knows I’m there. Sometimes it makes me feel lonely but I do sometimes like the feeling.
When you get like this just think thoughts like…“this is who I am!” It helps
It makes me feel like I am my conscience and I am just controlling a body that isn’t mine.

OfAwesome's avatar

I hope I don’t sound like a weirdo to everyone… I’m not it only happens when I’m in a crowded room or when I know everyone is watching me.

wundayatta's avatar

When I’m depressed, I feel like that, in the sense that I don’t think anyone likes me. I feel unlovable. Unnoticed. It can be like being sick on a sunny weekend day, and looking out and seeing everyone playing, but knowing you can’t go out or you’ll get everyone else sick.

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El_Cadejo's avatar

@janbb Once in a Lifetime was the first thing to pop into my head when I read this question too :)

El_Cadejo's avatar

Egh posted the wrong link above, let me amend that . The link above is the second song that popped into my head though I really dont like that song much.

Nuts's avatar

Yes, indeed, very often!
However, mostly it is unpleasant for me. Actually when in extreme, it is like THE horror of my living. There is no way how to get out alive (haven’t found it out yet) nor dead. I count off the death because I figured that I might stay in the dead body with my mind alive and nobody would know! Really nasty vision and I honestly deeply hope, that we just either can get out of our bodies after death or the mind dies too..

(btw I really love the movie @janbb is mentioning :) )

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