How can I approach this differently?
I can come off full of myself. I seem to forgotten how to have fun around certain people. Things, conversations, jokes become moral lectures. I feel the need to impart my perspective.
My experiences have made me unique. I think I over value this. Sometimes how silly things are and the dramas people worry about puts me off.
Intellectually I know this is life, we all learn lessons at different times. That taking things for granted is one of our privileges and gifts.
Yet I also feel the need to tell the people that I care about what I think and feel implanting things that they might remember in the right moment. Which is very silly and presumptuous of me.
I need a way to balance all this out. My conflicting desires: my need express myself and yet not give up the light heartedness, to be able to show compassion with people struggling with problems that aren’t actually problems and support the people with out losing patience or being haughty or indifferent. This is the hardest and most important part. I often think my problems are worse then other people. I don’t want to be that person.
Does that make sense?