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Why is my anxiety so weird?

Asked by Jacqueline02starr (10points) May 3rd, 2018

I have anxiety but my anxiety is so weird. During the day you could not make me eat out at any dine in place or restaurant. It doesn’t matter who I am with, whether that be family members, friends or even that special someone. I will not do it, I get shaky and a really weird feeling in my chest. But if I was to go eat at a restaurant with whoever at night time, I’ll be fine. It’s so weird and it bothers me. Another odd anxiety thing I have is, when family members notice I’m freaking out about something in public I get really defensive and rather angry and try and act like I’m fine and I avoid my family until we leave the shop, I will literally try and act like I don’t know them, and I don’t know why I do that but I can’t seem to control it. I also noticed that at night time my anxiety is gone, I can literally go to anywhere and not be scared in the slightest.. it’s so weird. The next odd anxiety thing I get and I’m ashamed of this is, I sometimes get anxiety around my parents when we’re out and such, I don’t know why I do and I despise it as I shouldn’t get anxiety when I’m around my own parents. Why is my anxiety so weird?

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gondwanalon's avatar

I’ve had anxiety all my life (I’m 67 and refuse medications to control it).

I encourage you to not feel ashamed and accept the anxiety as part of your personality. It is part of who you are and if people don’t like it then that is their problem not yours.

I can’t explain the uniqueness of your anxiety. It’s good for you to try to understand it. But don’t beat yourself up because of it. Try to accept it.

My true friends accept me for who I am and I have plenty of friends. My nervous personality rubs some folks the wrong way and again, that’s their problem.

Good health to you.

CWOTUS's avatar

Welcome to Fluther.

I can’t even begin to explain the “why” of your anxiety, and I would suggest that it’s not even a good question for you to attempt to answer. (Though I would compliment you for your apparent capability to recognize the different ways that it manifests; a lot of people would not have that self-awareness, I think.)

Contrary to your feeling, I don’t have any greater than so-called “normal” anxiety: I don’t particularly like to speak in front of groups, though I have done that, and I don’t like to be unclothed in groups of people, though I have also done that. Even so, I don’t particularly care to go to restaurants by myself; I just don’t like to waste the social aspect of “going out to eat” ... and not having a companion to share the experience with. (Or maybe that’s just my own rationalization; I’m also self-aware enough to realize that not everything we do is driven by pure reason, but our reasoning faculty helps us to explain perfectly logical-sounding reasons for every weird thing that we do.)

But getting back to your question, and the reason why I suggest it’s “the wrong question” to answer. Let’s assume that you find the perfectly valid reason “why your anxiety is so weird” – what good would that do you? (I’m not saying that there’s zero value in answering the question, because it could be a good exercise, but… you probably won’t be able to answer it anyway, and even if you could, then it probably wouldn’t help anything.)

But here’s a question that, even if you also can’t fully realize a full answer to it, working towards an answer would help you with every step: “How can I deal with this in ways that make my life better?”

Maybe (for example) you could start to walk past restaurants at lunch time or at other times during the daylight hours. Perhaps you could step inside just to ask the hostess if there are any specials that day, even if you don’t intend to eat there. Maybe you could sit at the bar and talk to the bartender while you smell the aromas around you. I don’t know; you think of something. (Or think of another question, which “the process of answering” all by itself would lead you to either resolving the issue entirely – it’s possible – or at least more effective ways to deal with the issue.)

Asking the question of “What’s wrong with apples?” just leads to a never-ending list of all of the problems with apples… and no solutions. If you ask instead, “How can I make apples better?” then you can start an orchard, a bakery, a juice factory… you name it.

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I can relate to the part about being anxious during the day but not at night. When my anxiety is bad, I feel the worst in the morning and much better in the evening. For some people, it is the opposite.

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